Trepidation

There has been 2 weeks since I came to the UK
everything are just fine
and I am feeling so lucky that
everything was and are going in the smooth way.
I really appreciate all the help I received here
If I came here all alone,
I think it wouldn't be so easy for me
I would have cried a thousand times already.
I think maybe praying is just effective
maybe God is the one who is helping me.
Giving me the chance to meet all these people I've met in the UK.
They are friendly and helpful.
Maybe I am the one who should change.


I've met some guys that are really attractive to me
I can't help myself thinking all the bad stuff that might be happened to me
Although we only met each other for one week...
Once again
I am too afraid to step out
I am too afraid to fall in love with someone that might not have any consequences
I am just thinking of so much
I am just so scared to hurt myself
What should I do?...
I can't let my doubts gone
Just keep thinking all these days
It is driving me crazy
Cause I can't see any happy endings....
If only we could met earlier...


You've been on my mind
I grow fonder everyday
Lose myself in time
Just thinking of your face
God only knows
Why it is taken me so long
To let my doubts go....