Could we?

Today, I did something that I never thought in the past that I will ever do
I went out  with a guy
which I think is a date
with the guy that I just met 2 week ago... (13 days ago)
maybe I really like him?
Which get me started to afraid
maybe it was a first sight love
who keep getting my attention when we first met.
It was a funny story to say how we met
it was unexpected and everything just out of sudden
I remember you were sitting beside me
with that smile I faintly saw from your side face
You got my notice.
I said some jokes about french dining 
and you laugh
then we keep messaging since that day
just like we have known each other for so long
just like we are really close friend who know everythings about each other
and I started to care about you
Started to get jealous started to get angry
there is no one I care about so much in my life, ever
and this is actually driving me crazy
I can't lose myself just thinking of your face
every day, every time, every hour, even in my dream
I could't sleep well in night and awakened from my dream
What do I really afraid of ?
Losing you?
But I think I can't bear to not be with you either
Why everything would be so hard
if only we could met earlier
could we?